17/7/09

ENTRANCE TO THE SHRINE - The broken wings

In a few days, loneliness overcame me; and I tired of the grim faces of books; I hired a carriage and started for
the house of Farris Effandi. As I reached the pine woods where people went for picnics, the driver took a
private way, shaded with willow trees on each side. Passing through , we could see the beauty of the green
grass, the grapevines, and the many coloured flowers of Nisan just blossoming.
In a few minutes the carriage stopped before a solitary house in the midst of a beautiful garden. The scent of
roses, gardenia, and jasmine filled the air. As I dismounted and entered the spacious garden, I saw Farris
Effandi coming to meet me. He ushered me into his house with a hearty welcome and sat by me, like a happy
father when he sees his son, showering me with questions on my life, future and education. I answered him,
my voice full of ambition and zeal; for I heard ringing in my ears the hymn of glory, and I was sailing the
calm sea of hopeful dreams. Just then a beautiful young woman, dressed in a gorgeous white silk gown,
appeared from behind the velvet curtains of the door and walked toward me. Farris Effandi and I rose from our seats.

This is my daughter Selma," said the old man. Then he introduced me to her, saying, "Fate has brought back
to me a dear old friend of mine in the person of his son." Selma stared at me a moment as if doubting that a
visitor could have entered their house. Her hand, when I touched it, was like a white lily, and a strange pang
pierced my heart.
We all sat silent as if Selma had brought into the room with her heavenly spirit worthy of mute respect. As she
felt the silence she smiled at me and said," Many a times my father has repeated to me the stories of his youth
and of the old days he and your father spent together. If your father spoke to you in the same way, then this
meeting is not the first one between us."
The old man was delighted to hear his daughter talking in such a manner and said, "Selma is very sentimental.
She sees everything through the eyes of the spirit." Then he resumed his conversation with care and tact as if
he had found in me a magic which took him on the wings of memory to the days of the past.
As I considered him, dreaming of my own later years, he looked upon me, as a lofty old tree that has
withstood storms and sunshine throws its shadow upon a small sapling which shakes before the breeze of
dawn.
But Selma was silent. Occasionally, she looked first at me and then at her father as if reading the first and last
chapters of life's drama. The day passed faster in that garden, and I could see through the window the ghostly
yellow kiss of sunset on the mountains of Lebanon. Farris Effandi continued to recount his experiences and I
listened entranced and responded with such enthusiasm that his sorrow was changed to happiness.
Selma sat by the window, looking on with sorrowful eyes and not speaking, although beauty has its own
heavenly language, loftier than he voices of tongues and lips. It is a timeless language, common to all
humanity, a calm lake that attracts the singing rivulets to its depth and makes them silent.
Only our spirits can understand beauty, or live and grow with it. It puzzles our minds; we are unable to
describe it in words; it is a sensation that our eyes cannot see, derived from both the one who observes and the
one who is looked upon. Real beauty is a ray which emanates from the holy of holies of the spirit, and
illuminates the body, as life comes from the depths of the earth and gives colour and scent to a flower.
Real beauty lies in the spiritual accord that is called love which can exist between a man and a woman.
Did my spirit and Selma's reach out to each other that day when we met, and did that yearning make me see
her as the most beautiful woman under the sun? Or was I intoxicated with the wine of youth which made me
fancy that which never existed.?
Did my youth blind my natural eyes and make me imagine the brightness of her eyes, the sweetness of her
mouth, and the grace of her figure? Or was it that her brightness, sweetness, and grace opened my eyes and
showed me the happiness and sorrow of love?
It is hard to answer these questions, but I say truly that in that hour I felt an emotion that I had never felt
before, a new affection resting calmly in my heart, like the spirit hovering over the waters at the creation of
the world, and from that affection was born my happiness and my sorrow. Thus ended the hour of my first
meeting with Selma, and thus the will of Heaven freed me from the bondage of youth and solitude and let me
walk in the procession of love.
Love is the only freedom in the world because it so elevates the spirit that the laws of humanity and the
phenomena of nature do not alter its course.

As I rose from my seat to depart, Farris Effandi came close to me and said soberly, "Now my son, since you
know your way to this house, you should come often and feel that you are coming to your father's house.
Consider me as a father and Selma as a sister." Saying this, he turned to Selma as if to ask confirmation of his
statement. She nodded her head positively and then looked at me as one who has found an old acquaintance.
Those words uttered by Farris Effandi Karamy placed me side by side with his daughter at the altar of love.
Those words were a heavenly song which started with exaltation and ended with sorrow; they raised our
spirits to the realm of light and searing flame; they were the cup from which we drank happiness and
bitterness.
I left the house. The old man accompanied me to the edge of the garden, while my heart throbbed like the
trembling lips of a thirsty man.

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